New Chapter or Same Old?

In January of last year, I took my last BCP. I knew it would take some time, but I also knew time was not on my side. Most endo patients will not have it again after a pregnancy. The stats my doc told me back in 2006, was only 15-20% will get it again. Well, apparently I am in that lucky percentage.

In November I found a new doctor which is only about an hour from my house. Dr. S (my old RE) was a godsend, but 2.5 hours away. My new doc actually used to work with Dr. S, which set my mind at ease. We will call him Dr. Sh.

In November, he ran a series of tests, and scheduled an internal u/s for December. He also wanted Joe to have his numbers checked again. So, when I went back in December I found out that on paper, Joe and I are quite fertile! Isn't that a hoot? My u/s showed just one cyst, which Dr. Sh said is a type of cysts that some women get very early in pregnancy. He reviewed Joe's karyotype, and discussed future options. However, he is incredibly optimistic that the BT will not come into play. We will have to see what happens.

During this appointment, we decided that doing another lap surgery could be my (and I quote) "golden ticket". :-) So, yesterday I went in for my procedure. The endo pain this time has been different. This time around, I have had INTENSE pain during ovulation, but just normal period cramping. So, completely reversed.

As much the same with my last lap, things were worse than we had anticipated. I will need Joe to correct me here, but the endo had actually distorted the shape of my uterus. My fallopian tube was clogged, endo everywhere, but the thing that got me was that my cervix was closing. No wonder nothing was happening. I am not sure what causing a cervix to tighten and close, so I need to do some research on that. I am not even that old! 29 isn't old, right? Though, Dr. Sh, did say that he'd like to see me get pg before next birthday as chances decrease by about 20% after a woman turns 30.

I think the worst thing is the emotion behind this. Why won't the endo leave me alone? I was hoping that it wasn't back. The good thing is, that Joe didn't recall the doc mention seeing any polyps. Last time, there were several polyps that needed to be removed as well. I know this sounds over the top, but I foresee a hysterectomy in my future.

I am excited to embark on a new journey, and hope to make a healthy little sibling for our Ry guy. At the same time, I am so mad at my body that I can't see straight!

Despite the discharge after care, Dr. Sh, saw a lovely egg, and would like us to try either tonight or tomorrow. I had just assume that I would take a month off, but he did not see a reason to wait.

Rylan is such a sweetheart, he took great care of me last night, and this morning. :-) I could not ask for a sweeter boy. My wonderful husband has been extremely helpful taking care of me. He would not leave my side for one moment- even to eat. Thank you boys, I love you!